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rant for this morning

Ok so morning is done in 5 minutes so what LOL. Been talking to a couple people on youtube comments this morning, and I am amazed at the hypocrisy of some people, and the nerve. I just don't get it, lately things seem so bass-ackwards to me, it blows my mind. I have one contact on facebook who is mad as hell, at seeing my posts and links and that that I share, because she hates the content. Ok, so if she doesn't agree with what I say that's her right, but to get mad at me for saying it because I believe it to be true? Feel free to comment or feel free to ignore, but don't tell me I have no right to say what I want on my own page, you know? This whole thing with prop8, people get downright nasty with it all, even with the election. So I have this one guy Clem, who I have talked to before, about the whole gay issue. He is extremely bitter and he admits that. He admits that he has an agenda although he denies to cal it that, we know it for what it is. When one claims persecution then wants revenge, and he wants basically for christianity to be wiped out, I'd dare say that is an agenda. He hates all people of faith, thinking everyone is in the same box, and generalizes so much, then has the nerve to call me bigoted for pointing out what I believe, and has the nerve to attack me personally based on history of some crazy so called christians that act out of control, and then cries persecution because he isn't treated with equality? WOOT? If none of this makes sense it's because I am ranting, I am kind of choked right now and venting for sure, and trying to keep my thoughts straight.
I support prop8. I believe the traditional family and marriage definition should be upheld for what it was meant and designed to be to begin with. I do not advocate gay marriage and cannot justify condoning it in any way shape or form. But just because I do, doesn't mean I am hateful towards gay people in general and want them wiped off the face of the earth as people like Clem come out and openly ADMIT they want christianity destroyed.
I love all people, I try to not treat anyone as any more or less of human beings, and my life can testify to this, ask my friends and family.
In the last two years or more that I have been on youtube I have learned alot. I have learned alot about myself, what I believe and WHY, and I have learned other viewpoints and why they believe what they believe. I have not changed what I believe but I have come to more of an understanding and empathy of where other people come from. If anything it confirms to me what I had already come to believe as truth.
And I have had my own experiences that have taught me alot about acceptance, and tolerance, and not judging or condemning others. I could say I have grown from it, in the past two and half years or so that I have been on youtube.
I have laerned that sometimes it is better to say less and listen more. I have learned to be more patient and loving than immediately assuming or judging.
But I still don't understand, lately things seems so backwards, and I cannot explain that to others, I can barely understand it myself...
Sometimes, I feel inadequate to even speak. I feel like a hypocrite because how can I justify telling one person they are doing something wrong when I myself do some of the same things wrong? I am no better than any of them. Under God we are all humans subject to the same sins, the same temptations, the same trials and heartache and sorrow and suffering and persecution and hatred and bigotry.
I can't make people understand that I know where they are coming from, and I cannot force them to see what their eyes and heart is closed to seeing, it is frustrating. And I cannot explain how in my heart of hearts I just KNOW when something isn't right, because everyone wants a reason, everyone wants "proof", everyone wants an excuse to justify what they do and say so that they don't have to be held accountable for doing wrong. It breaks my heart to see people who are so blinded, get so angry and hateful, like Clem, wanting to destroy the very God that created them, and they just cannot see that what they are doing is so irrational, it makes no sense.
They have taken the truth of the word of God and twisted it around completely, turned it upside down. What was good is now considered hateful, what is right is now considered inhumane. What was just is now looked at as being prejudiced and damaging to equality of mankind.
Since when did a religious institution such as marriage become a crime? When people tried to justify sin. It makes me wonder, if perhaps the whole religious institution of marriage should have ever been introduced as law in the first place. Now that it is we can't exactly abolish it cpmletely, so they are trying to modify it to suit their own selfish desires, but if you go back to the every beginning, why was it ever put in the government in the first place? Maybe it shouldn't have been, because now look what it has become. If you cannot have God in the government, because it is forcing people to accept things they should be free under God to reject, then why?
Look at what happened in Massachusettes, when they allowed gay marriages. How can they say it does not have long term negative effects on our children? They don't want us preaching, but it's okay for them to force children in elementary school to read gay materials and support things like gay pride, not even balancing it out with a look at all views, and taking the position that it is not a choice, the schools and the gvernment decides that your kids HAVE to learn this, yet we cannot object and we cannot teach them what we believe? ARRRGGGHHHH!!! Frustrating!
Where is God in any of this?
Where are the people praying?
Where are the godly people upholding morals and values?
They are all giving into peer pressure thats where. Too busy listening to man and ignoring God. Riding the fence afraid to offend, afraid to rock the boat, afraid to stand up and be counted as separate, afraid to "stick out" because they want to blend in and be unnoticed. isn't that the lukewarm that we are told will be spit out of His mouth?
I was thinking of what some people are saying about the election, and how they believe maybe God allowed Obama to be president for a reason, well, of course He always has a reason and a purpose, but I don't understand what. Some people say that god is punishing the US for turning away from Him, and I was reminded of the verse, Romans 1:25-27(NIV)

25They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen.

26Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. 27In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.

Does that not perfectly fit todays society or what? How can people not see the comparison?

Acts 28:26-28 (NIV)

26" 'Go to this people and say,
"You will be ever hearing but never understanding;
you will be ever seeing but never perceiving."
27For this people's heart has become calloused;
they hardly hear with their ears,
and they have closed their eyes.
Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
hear with their ears,
understand with their hearts
and turn, and I would heal them.'

Ephesians 4:17-19

17So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. 18They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. 19Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more.

2 Chronicles 7:13-15
13 "When I shut up the heavens so that there is no rain, or command locusts to devour the land or send a plague among my people, 14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. 15 Now my eyes will be open and my ears attentive to the prayers offered in this place.

This fits. We need to be praying, more than ever before, that people will turn back to God, that their eyes are opened. As the body of Christ. But individually, my struggle is what can I do, one person, among the many that are so hell bent on destroying anything to do with God? What chance do I have, when I feel so alone that my voice is silenced by the crowds of so many that are so backwards? Its hard to have faith that God hears when i can barely hear myself.

Sheesh, it's been an hour, time to end this rant lol.
This is just one thing that weighs me down though, among many things, its a burden I have, I just wish that I could get an answer for it, so i could know what I can do, myself, to make a difference, if anything...

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